Entry 042 for Monday May 25, 2020
The core questions:
Credit goes to Ben and readers of his blog for these “Four Questions” and the five stretch questions.
- What did you do today? Student meetings with Pablo and Adriana (#TC1030), Ivan (#TC1033), Sergio and Miguel (#TI2011); #educoffee with Mahdi; preparing for and discussing with my department chair Mario my final report for the 2019-2020 academic year; meeting for instructors of #Semana18; early to bed.
- What did you enjoy? My meeting with Mario was really good. I do think that I’ve been able to accomplish quite a lot this year even though I’ve felt that I had to push some things aside. Perhaps this was getting better at prioritizing. I wrote a yearly review post last year and should do that again this year. I do think that my contributions are being appreciated and that does feel good.
- What did you find difficult? I wrote about Audrey losing her son. My friend Kin Lane wrote a post on his “Drone Recovery” site with his thoughts on his relationship with “the kid”. I cried. I know that any problems I have had in life pale in comparison but loss hurts. It took me years to come to terms with losing one of my best friends (Mike Miller) and realizing that I did what I could and I wasn’t at all guilty for not doing more for Mike despite us living in different countries. Damn I miss Mike and damn loss is so difficult. We spend many hours playing those old Infocom adventures on your Apple II+.
- What has changed? Is loss more visible now that I am getting older? Is this more visible while in a pandemic? Or is this a combination of factors? This sucks with seeing so much loss lately, it hurts deeply. Yes I have so much but this is all so fragile and brings us back to looking for the answer to the ultimate question of life, the universe, and everything.